…………….WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN !!!

Renu I love you…
Your presence I miss…
And I terribly long…
For the one last kiss…

This day, 6 weeks ago, God took away the most beautiful person from my life – my love, my friend, my wife. Renu (Raji), you are a ROLE MODEL. A role model mom, a role model wife, a role model daughter, a role model sister, a role model friend, a role model student, a role model doctor. Your SMILE, as people say, could light up the entire world. I thank you for coming into my life. The 6 and half years we lived together was worth more than 65 years of togetherness. You were always by my side, in good times and bad. You gave me all the love that I could ever imagine. You made our house a home. You gave me everything. And 2 years back you gave me the most precious gift – our little angel Annabelle. You are undeniably the best mom ever.

All that came to an abrupt end that night. My heart aches, my eyes leak, my soul feels hollow when I think that you are gone.

People told me it was God’s plan. He wanted you to be safe with Him in Heaven. I hated God and I told him that. Even when I prayed for Annabelle’s recovery, I told God I would never forgive Him for what he did. Then I heard God telling me that he was happy to hear the truth from me. He knows that I am angry at Him and its good I didn’t lie to Him. He told me not to worry as my wife was safe and happy in Heaven.

I asked God, what do I tell Annabelle when she asks me “ Dad, if Mom was the best person like everyone says, why did God take her away so soon?” God replied, tell Annabelle that her mom was the most beautiful flower in God’s garden. And when you are in your garden which flower do you pick first to keep with you ? The most beautiful one of course. That’s the reason why God took away the most beautiful flower, your mom. He wanted her to be safe with Him in Heaven.

Then I asked God, why couldn’t HE give her a few more years to live with us. He told me this story :

“ Thirty years back, a great argument broke out in Heaven between two groups of angels. The argument was over a most beautiful soul that I had created. One group of angels argued that she should always remain in heaven, as earth was too bad a place for this soul to live in. The other group argued that she must be sent down to the earth as she could lighten up the darkness down there and change lives with her goodness. This argument went on and on till I finally decided that I would send her down to the earth. But I promised the first group of angels that my decision came with a condition. I told them that even though she will leave us and go down to the earth, it would not be long before she returns back to Heaven. She is my most beautiful creation and she will not take a long time to fulfill her mission. Her journey on earth will be brief and during this brief journey, she will bring light, joy and happiness to the world.” That soul, my son, was your wife. I gave my only son Jesus, almost the same number of years in this world. Do you think I didn’t love my son, that I took him away? Your wife, Annabelle’s mother, had fulfilled her mission on earth and that is the reason I took her back to where she belongs. And I promise you that she is happy and safe with Me. I also promise you that when you complete your journey here, you will see her again.

This story changed my life. I am grateful to God that he chose me to be the lucky one to have her in my life.

As for the Devil I admit that you won. You succeeded in making me hate my God. But let me tell you that your victory was short lived. You wanted to make my wife suffer, but God took her away to a safe place where you cannot dare enter. You tried your best to make my daughter suffer but you forgot that when my wife was a mortal human being, she didn’t allow you to touch our daughter. You were foolish to think that you could compete with my wife when she is an angel up above. She made sure that Annabelle recovered. Again, you lost. If you want to try your luck again, I dare you…bring it on…Together with my daughter on earth and my wife above, we are one big army. When our angel is with us nothing can harm us.

Renu (Raji), I always wanted you to be happy. So now when you are in the safest and happiest place ever, I know I should be happy for you. I promise you that we will be happy too.

“Do not stand at my grave and weep…I’m not there, I don’t sleep. ” I will not cry anymore as I know that eventually I am going to be with you again-for it’s not a question of IF..it’s just a question of WHEN. And when that time comes I will be in perfect bliss, coz no longer would I have to wait for that one last kiss. My only regret is that there are a few things left untold. I will tell you all that and more when I see you again !!!